Thursday, July 15, 2010

I will always love you...

Our sweet Sophie girls was put down little over a week ago. It was our final decision, and it was a horrible one to make. She was struggling and not enjoying life anymore. She made it eight months with cancer and she was a fighter. I'm sitting here with tears rolling down my face, i miss her so much. My stomach hurts every time i realize i will never see her sweet face again. I cry every time Jack asks me, "why is Sophie in heaven." He is having a really hard time and I feel so helpless. My mom used to tell me the worst feeling in the world is when you can't "fix" your child's sadness. Now, i completely understand, there is nothing I can do but love him and help him go through the grieving process. Sophie was an incredible dog and we were lucky to have her for five years. I know she we always be with us and in our hearts! I love you Sophie girl!

Saturday, July 3, 2010

happily ever after

Tonight Rob and I went to a wedding for one of his co -workers. This was the most unconventional wedding i have ever been to, canned bear, a taco bar, plastic table clothes and karaoke. With that said, it was wonderful...let me explain! So I'm a total sucker for weddings, in this case the groom was 63 and had never been married. They were so incredibly happy and in love. It wasn't the type of wedding I'm used to attending but it worked for them, actually, it worked for everyone. We all had a wonderful time, eating amazing food, drinking and most of all laughing. I met many of Rob's co-workers that i had never met before. I have heard all of there names and stories about them but never indeed met them. Tonight opened my eyes to so many wonderful things. Every morning Rob wakes up, puts his nice clothes on and goes to work. I usually talk to him a few times a day and then he comes home and changes his clothes and becomes daddy/husband. Tonight i was able to peak into his work life, and I became aware of what a outstanding member of society he has become. Each worker, even the president of the company came to me at different points of the evening to share with me what an amazing man Robert is. I know he is an amazing husband and Daddy but it was so wonderful to hear so many admiring things about him. I am so proud and honored that I was able to hear all these wonderful stories and moments about his career and how people view him. It was a treat and I know he has just begun on his wonderful path to a very successful career, he is such a hard and determined man that I know wonderful things are to come in the future.
With that said, in a week from today we will be celebrating our 6th wedding anniversary. As i was at the wedding tonight I was reminiscing about our day. We met when I was 18 and now I'm 30. We have truly grown up together, going through so many changes and life decisions. I can honestly say I'm more in love with him this minute than I was on our wedding day! Don't get me wrong, we argue, we fight, he bugs me at times, his farts stink, he can't put his glasses in the dishwasher but at the end of the day he is mine. Tonight makes me remember why I fell in love with him. He is proud of me and isn't afraid to show it, he loves me for who I am and we can just look at each other and know what were thinking. When we met at 18 ,it was NOT love at first sight but now I only see love. Neither of us are perfect and we continue to learn and grow but we are happy. There isn't anyone else who can make me laugh the way he does, even if I really don't want to. Sometimes life is so busy that we forget to stop and make time for each other, but tonight was a reminder to me. We are lucky enough that we get to share time alone together, just me and Robbie...that's how this all started and I believe its very healthy to reconnect and focus on each other. I know most of the time I put my kids first but tonight as we were at this oddly romantic, crazy wedding, i remembered without the strength of our marriage nothing else is possible.
With that said...Robbie, I love you and you are my happily ever after!!!