honest feelings

so lately i have been in a bit of a rut. I love my life and i wouldn't change it for the world but some days being a mommy is exhausting. I have 2 kids 21 months apart and some days all i feel I do is change diapers, prepare a meal, feed a meal, clean up after a meal, laundry, trips to target, trying to keep the house clean and keeping my sanity. My whole life i have been very active and involved in many things like dance team, my college sorority and my teaching career...you don't realize how sometimes getting praise for all the hard work you do is really important. Don't get me wrong, my children are my biggest accomplishment and there hugs and kisses fill my heart but some days i feel like a robot and I just go through the motions. Rob has been really great telling me i need to go do things for myself....it's funny, i want to but then when I'm away from my kids i only think about them and miss them. Motherhood is so weird, all you want is a break and then when you have one you miss them more than ever. In two weeks, Rob and I and our friends Lisa and Mike are going to Hawaii for five days....i think this is just what I need to rejuvenate and feel like an adult with some adult fun! I will miss my kids soooooo much but i know they will have a blast with grammy and grampy and i need to learn to let people help me when i need it! Thanks for letting me vent...i feel better already! xoxo